Blue Thursday
Hey bloggers
Don't know what is wrong today but feeling particularly blue today. i had a great morning, got to spend 1/2 hour on shoulders (left the gym floor with a massive sweat up) to move to the cardio section and sweated some more on the elliptical trainer for 30 mins, changing intensity and resistence levels every min.
I got to thinking about friends. Mind you the ones I do have are of total quality. But I don't have someone to discuss my current feelings with without saying 'get over it'. So hard to do when you don't know what is wrong! I really miss a good friend who used to email me all the time and we would talk for ages, but over the last couple of years, things have not been quite right, I can't explain it, it just sort of happened. I can not even pinpoint the time where it all started to change. Soooooooo my point is I am using this blogging spot to discuss what I would discuss with someone who is listening???? Make sense? Not to me!!!!
So what is wrong with me???? LIFE? - no I do have a good one. WORK? - no I have a very easy job that pays very well, travel is a bit of a hassle but other than that, luv working with the boys in construction. HUSBAND? - would like him to see what he is doing to his body, but one of those ozzy ockers that are so set in his way, a bit hard. Easy to live with though as he never doubts or stops me from doing what I want to do. CHILD? - Well - teenagers - what can i say. Typical teenage son who does not help around the house or cleans his room because he is too busy socialising and going to uni. normal! HEALTH? - I am healthy, no illnesses or complaints. LOOKS? - Found it! I guess if you put it down to any one thing, this would have to be it. I am doing something about it but it is the patience that I am lacking. I shouldn't feel this way but i feel cheated. My sister who is 14 months younger than me, 1 foot taller than me and about a size 8-10, has never struggled with her weight. Yet me, I have struggled ever since i hit puberty, so bad that I stopped eating when I was 21, just having 1 cup of coffee and 3 biscuits a day. If I knew then what I know now, I wouldn't have the problem I am experiencing. I guess I have just nailed it, I recently met up with my family and all these feelings have come back. Damn! You can't pick them. Sooooooo now I am going to tell myself..............................GET OVER IT!!!!
Right that did it. Vented, read it, saw how stupid it is. Now onwards.
I am going to do Balance tonight and that always makes me feel relaxed, sore but relaxed. luv the stretching you can get out of a balance workout. Have had good food experiences so far this week, so on track. Only 46 &1/2 weeks to go to reach my long term goal. I will get there.
Bye bloggers, apologies you had to read this crap. Talk to you soon
X:D)
Don't know what is wrong today but feeling particularly blue today. i had a great morning, got to spend 1/2 hour on shoulders (left the gym floor with a massive sweat up) to move to the cardio section and sweated some more on the elliptical trainer for 30 mins, changing intensity and resistence levels every min.
I got to thinking about friends. Mind you the ones I do have are of total quality. But I don't have someone to discuss my current feelings with without saying 'get over it'. So hard to do when you don't know what is wrong! I really miss a good friend who used to email me all the time and we would talk for ages, but over the last couple of years, things have not been quite right, I can't explain it, it just sort of happened. I can not even pinpoint the time where it all started to change. Soooooooo my point is I am using this blogging spot to discuss what I would discuss with someone who is listening???? Make sense? Not to me!!!!
So what is wrong with me???? LIFE? - no I do have a good one. WORK? - no I have a very easy job that pays very well, travel is a bit of a hassle but other than that, luv working with the boys in construction. HUSBAND? - would like him to see what he is doing to his body, but one of those ozzy ockers that are so set in his way, a bit hard. Easy to live with though as he never doubts or stops me from doing what I want to do. CHILD? - Well - teenagers - what can i say. Typical teenage son who does not help around the house or cleans his room because he is too busy socialising and going to uni. normal! HEALTH? - I am healthy, no illnesses or complaints. LOOKS? - Found it! I guess if you put it down to any one thing, this would have to be it. I am doing something about it but it is the patience that I am lacking. I shouldn't feel this way but i feel cheated. My sister who is 14 months younger than me, 1 foot taller than me and about a size 8-10, has never struggled with her weight. Yet me, I have struggled ever since i hit puberty, so bad that I stopped eating when I was 21, just having 1 cup of coffee and 3 biscuits a day. If I knew then what I know now, I wouldn't have the problem I am experiencing. I guess I have just nailed it, I recently met up with my family and all these feelings have come back. Damn! You can't pick them. Sooooooo now I am going to tell myself..............................GET OVER IT!!!!
Right that did it. Vented, read it, saw how stupid it is. Now onwards.
I am going to do Balance tonight and that always makes me feel relaxed, sore but relaxed. luv the stretching you can get out of a balance workout. Have had good food experiences so far this week, so on track. Only 46 &1/2 weeks to go to reach my long term goal. I will get there.
Bye bloggers, apologies you had to read this crap. Talk to you soon
X:D)
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